Recovery is a personal journey, a healing process that requires time and commitment. There are many ways in which we experience our recovery journey, there is not one way that is defined as recovery. It is about personal growth and development. Becoming a better version of yourself can be uncomfortable, and it can also be difficult. Whenever we go through change there is always a sense of uneasiness, and sometimes we can even freeze with fear of the unknown. Although everyone’s journey is different the end result is something we all have in common, to be better than we were yesterday.
My recovery journey began with going into a long-term residential treatment program. I had become so removed from life it was like I had forgotten the basic guidelines of how to live life. Even things as simple as going to work, being accountable and reliable, and being a member of my family were foreign to me. I remember thinking that I knew these things were important and I wanted to do them, but I just did not know how. I needed to heal from the inside out. The process of healing takes time, it doesn’t happen overnight. I had to come to terms with that and work for it slowly. I walked into that treatment center on April 25th of 2011, and I never looked back.
There were many times that I thought about giving up. Life circumstances would knock me on my back. I remember asking myself if it was worth it. At one point, I was working three jobs and attending college and was so exhausted from all the running. I wanted to give up, I wanted life to be easier, I was tired of running in circles. I was living on my own and trying to keep up with school, rent, and a crazy schedule. There is no real way that something can prepare you for life. You just have to live it. Sometimes the stress of so many things happening can be overwhelming. I would think about all the things I wanted to do with my life. Then, I would think about all the things that I have done. Where was I going, and how was I to get there. It sounds simple, but in the midst of so many feelings rushing over you at once positivity can become clouded. I went sky diving, took vacations across the country, spoken to rooms filled with professionals from several different professions and I still forget all of those amazing experiences.
This past month was just that for me. I was interning and overwhelmed, stressed, and was beginning to forget how I have this amazing life. There were so many deadlines to keep and it all happened so quickly. I could only focus on what was the next obstacle in front of me. Sometimes that is the best way we can handle the situation that we are in. It is not that I forget who I am, more like I was getting so busy making a life, that I forgot about enjoying the experience. There was a moment when I stopped to take a breath, and realized that I was living my dream. Standing in my fifth year of recovery amazed at all the experiences that I have had and the people that I have met along the way. I realized that I was already a success. It wasn’t a document that told me I had completed something or a pat on the back for a good job, it was the moment that allowed me to see that as long as I put one foot in front of the other I am living my dreams. It is within these moments that we can see where our journeys have taken us. It doesn’t matter how long it takes to get there, as long as we keep moving forward. We may have to take a few steps backward in times of adversity, but sometimes those steps make our journeys that much stronger and we are that much wiser.
It is within these moments that we can see where our journeys have taken us. It doesn’t matter how long it takes to get there, as long as we keep moving forward. We may have to take a few steps backward in times of adversity, but sometimes those steps make our journeys that much stronger and we are that much wiser.
Life of Purpose Treatment
3848 FAU Boulevard, Suite 100
Boca Raton, FL 33431