“I have to do WHAT?!?!” Most of us have made this statement a time or two, especially if you are a college student in recovery. There are many things that I have had to do over the years to “get by”. Part time jobs, twelve hour cram sessions, participate in study groups when all you want to do is sleep, and let’s not forget staying up until three in the morning to work on that research paper you had been procrastinating. These are just a few of the giant list of sacrifices that we have to make. We scream, “WHY?” while pulling out our hair and gritting our teeth, but we know why. Perhaps at the moment it is not so charming or charismatic to admit that we have all felt moments of anger, defeat, or loneliness. Making sacrifices is a big part of being a successful college student. We are making CURRENT sacrifices, for a vision of our future.
This is normal, I will say it again… THIS IS NORMAL! We all feel those feelings, like we are missing out, or there is not enough time in the day to do everything on your ‘to do’ list. Most of the time, it is because we are so overwhelmed with what is going on that we forget WHY and WHAT we are working for! I have felt the pain of working 2 part time jobs, a full time class load, and crunching in study time. One of the most painful moments of last semester was missing one of my close friend’s weddings because I had to study for a midterm. I also had to work that weekend. It is tough to be a student and try to maintain housing, bills, and my recovery but again, let’s remember why we are working so hard.
When I think about all the classes, tests, and study time I have crammed into the last two years it amazes me, not because it was impossible, but because it is something that I have done. Guess what that means… I will not always be in college, I will not always be struggling to balance a schedule (well at least with school and study time). I am working towards something which is my future, to prevent me from having to struggle for the rest of my life. This is something that NO one can ever take away from you, your education.
Did I choose this life? I most certainly did! I am proud of that fact. Do I like it all the time? Of course not! But I know that my future self will say, “Thank you for every sleepless night, tear, and hair pull moment- because I will never have to do that again!”
When you have these moments of defeat, or want to scream, like I do, remember why we are doing this; remember that you are making sacrifices today to have a future that YOU envisioned for yourself!
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