“You don’t understand!” was my motto for years before I came into recovery. I remember trying to drink the pain away of past indiscretions and telling myself this is the only way to live with the pain that I had endured. I always felt different, like people really didn’t understand me or my life situations, and if you did not understand me, then why bother to try to talk to you about my circumstances. I figured that I was only hurting myself and I would drown in sorrow, alone, and I can handle it on my own.
This was one of the scariest places to be, thinking I was managing my life but was failing at living. I didn’t believe that there was a way out, how could I? Considering that I did not know I was in a place that I needed to get out of. I know that I was blinded by the façade that I was just your normal college student who participated in the college parties a little too often perhaps, but hey who didn’t? Once I realized the road I was on missing classes and not turning in assignments, because I did not even know about them, it was already too late. I left school in search of the comfort that drinking gave me. I left my friends, and decided that this was something that they just would not understand and went on about my life. I thought well, maybe school is just not for me. I believed that this life was a normal life and that this was going to be my story. I remember many people trying to intervene in my drinking escapades, but I would always minimize the situation and tell them they had no idea what they were talking about and to leave me alone, to me, they did not understand.
I can tell you, I do understand, and there are many people out there that do understand. We just never gave them the opportunity to listen and let ourselves see that there is another way. Thinking about those last few weeks of college, I wish I would have opened up. I wish I would have done a lot of things differently and allowed myself to see that there is a different way. What would you do if you knew that there was a treatment center on a college campus where you could receive help? Not be shamed for that help, actually be empowered for seeking help, and continue to work on your education? Where you can find peers that are doing the same and are being empowered to create a life that is full of possibilities? Life of Purpose offers a second chance not only to those who may have a tarnished school record, but for those who are still attending college.
There are students all over the country that have changed and rewritten their stories. We work together and support one another to create a healthy life and continue our college education. The first step to this is realizing that I did not have to do this alone, that people were there to help me and teach me to be a better student and person. I reached out to people that pointed me in the right direction, supported me, and empowered me to seek help. If it was not for those individuals I do not know where I would be today. Those people continue to inspire me today; I don’t have to go through anything alone ever again. I have an entire support system that is here when I need them, and even when I don’t think that I need them, they are still here.
If you are struggling in school, life, or wanting to get back into college and make some positive changes, we are here to help. Reach out to us, and tell us what we can do to help YOU! You don’t have to do this alone, and you don’t need to. The pathway to be successful is by working together and creating a life that is far beyond your imagination! Believe me, I have lived it!
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